Saturday, March 31, 2012

Life Update 2

Exam is coming up in two weeks time. I should be studying by now but still I don't have the will to open any books to read. Maybe April 1st would be a good time to start. Just giving myself a break for a day or two this time.

I realized that I managed to archived some of the new year resolution already. I was happy with such achievement. After all I created a whole bunch of target just to keep myself going. Personally it's a good way for people who is as lazy as I am to make myself useful.

I do love giving donation. My problem was it did not recognize by the government the last time I did as they said the orphanage and school did not apply for the tax rebate from the IRS. So instead of just helping me to fix the mistake, the IRS charged me RM300 as compound saying I falsify my tax. It's just made me sad and I cancel all my auto-debit donations to all charity. I decided to just give directly to the homes things they can use instead of money now. It's sad that when you try to help other, you got fine for it.

My sales at the moment already reached RM4700 and it just two months since I started doing the business. Although the profit is not that much, I am just happy that I could reach my target beyond my expectations. So I am preoccupied mostly trying to broaden my scope of products. See how the market are.

I need a break. A proper break. I wish someone would help me planned all my holiday for me and I just relax enjoying it. I'm a planner so I am still the best at doing all the planning. I did gave my friend a try to plan for our trip and I had to take over once we were lost. Yeah! I purposely go with the plan until I see it's critical before I jumped in. I'm just very detail when it come to planning. No matter how lazy i say I am, I would still end up making the proper plan for my trip.

Maybe I have OCD?

Maybe I am a perfectionist?

To be continue.....

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Spring Cleaning

Finally, I decided to do some spring cleaning at the house. This house in dire need some make over. I can't really do much on the physical part of the house but I could tidy up my stuff.

Everybody visited this house noticed that the house is messy with the small small stuff which need to be thrown or kept away. So today is the day I said goodbye to some of the stuff. Well most of it. I have a lot to do actually and I did it part by part. The living room, dining room , wardrobe room, kitchen and lastly the bedroom. 

Oh ya, thanks to IKEA boxes I could hide most of the stuff in it and now I think I have too much clothes. Weeeee!!!


Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I Do Feel Tired Too

Sometime my parent don't understand how tired I am with my work. Apart from my work I have to handle some of their works too. So when do I rest?

I make myself free to go home to my parent place at least twice in a month. The rest I really want to just free to do my stuff.

I know if I just stay put and do nothing, how do I move forward in life. How do I get all my target achieved? I've been pushing myself to work harder until I forgot how to rest. I actually can feel the fatigue hitting me now. So when I told my parent I want a break I really want them to understand that I'm dying of one.

I've have been so busy lately. I don't have time to hang out with my friends like I used to do. Haih.

Time only stop when you die. Well it's the price I have to pay for now.

"When you have time, you don't have the money to enjoy it but when you have the money, you don't have time to enjoy it"

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Life Update

I noticed that I've been working a lot lately. I know I should give myself a break from time to time but I just don't know what to do when I'm alone.

I'm earning more than average people in my country. To be exact at about 8x more than a University graduates and I'm very grateful about it. I'm happy for the work I have right now but I don't know how long will it last. As for now I'm just grateful to have a job.

I learned a lot in life. Just my love life seem to be at the dead end. I can't decide what I want when it come to love. I just doesn't really seem to care to put an effort to it. I was hit really bad on my previous relationship. So bad I was not able to stand up from my fall for almost a month. I told myself one day I must left it behind and go on with my life.

I guess the reason why I don't care is because I used to care so much and got hurt so bad. How do you recover fully from that?

I still reminded of my past. Lately I felt nothing is right in my life. I don't know what is wrong but it's like my heart telling me something I couldn't understand. I don't really know how to get rid of the feeling. There is no 'off' button that I could click on.

I love to travel but at the same time I'm trying not to overspend my money. I'm trying to save as much as I can and pay off any remaining debt I have. I wanted to be debt free. It's not easy to accomplish as my spending nature is terrible. I need more money. Well who doesn't.

To be continued.....

Monday, March 12, 2012

I'm Too Fat

That is it. I ate too much causing my weight to gain drastically. It's my fault. So it's time for me to fix it.

Gaining is easy. Losing is extremely difficult. So I've decided to change my diet intake effective immediately.

- No rice
- No cheese
- No pasta
- No canned drink
- No sugary drink
- No fast food
- No fatty food
- No overeating.
- No to what I think should be a No.

I need to discipline myself in order to achieve my target.

I need to lose 10kg. I shall do my best.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Stress Can Kill

Out of the sudden I felt so stress when I'm back home. I feel so happy when I'm out of the country actually. Maybe it's time for me to move out from this house and find a new place to live in. I use to call it home but now it feel like a dumb to me.

Don't get me wrong. This house is perfect just for me to stay. Low rental, great location and such. But the ONE huge thing affecting it now is it past. A terrible past which making me stress everytime it triggers in my memory. What would you do?

I can't own this house. I don't think I have enough financially to own this house since I already in debt with all my other houses. Great move for long term but pain in the ass to pay off the loan. If I were to own this house I will renovate it to the max until I myself won't even recognize it.

Stress is a bitch and I'm getting emo just thinking about it. What the hell happen to me?


Thursday, March 1, 2012

Messy House

I seriously think I can't keep up cleaning up the house anymore. It just so messy no matter how I clean it. My main problem is I keep all small small thing which ends up piling up as huge thing.

Maybe I need to throw away some stuff form this house to clear up a little bit. I shall. 

First will definitely call the maid to come and clean the house first. The rest will come soon.

Haih. Tired.