Saturday, February 25, 2012

Still I Can Never Forget

It has been awhile since the breakup. I know it's for the best. It's for my best. But why I still do feel sad when I'm all alone?

It's take time to heal a wounded heart but apparently my heart is still bleeding. How could I forget my past? I need to forget my past. It's hurt even thinking about what had happen.

I can put a smile on my face and cover the truth from people. The fact is I'm breaking down slowly. It's getting worst weeks by weeks. I'm afraid if I keep this up I would just snap and lost it.

Why can't I stop thinking about the past? The dark past I had with someone daring enough to cheat on my right in front of my eyes. Someone who stab me through my heart, didn't have the courtesy to properly break up with me before having a new relationship. Someone who bring the new lover in my house and act like nothing is wrong.

Yet I'm still hurt until now thinking about it. Am I that bad until I had to be hurt so badly? I've forgiven every single wrong doing that ever done to me. I'm not evil.

I need to forget my terrible past. I just need to smile honestly and not faking it. I need to be free. I just don't know why I'm still stuck thinking about it.

It's gone. It's gone. Let it be gone. Let me forget.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Facebook Privacy

I deactivated my Facebook for a few weeks due to some personal reason. It seem that some would really noticed that I'm actually gone from Facebook. Today, I reactivate again my Facebook with some few changes to be made. 

Since Facebook privacy policy is keep changing, the only way for me to ensure my own personal safety I will clearing up people who I never met in real life. I don't know their true intention for adding me. Plus, with no actual self picture, why bother creating a Facebook profile in the first place. 

I know it's drastic but things need to be done. I'm lazy to entertain all those nonsense anymore. The internet world is getting worst and worst everyday. So it is my choice to do what I feel right.